Sometimes I get a thought come which says 'you are not good enough for this job, you won't do it well, you aren't equipped'. Really, it is rather rude and not helpful. I have been reminding myself that if God has sent me here, he will be with me in all my work.
Jeremiah 29:11 is a popular and well known Christian verse, it's a word of encouragement given to Israel who are currently in exile. Though sometimes we miss the wider context and limit our understanding of what is being said.
When the 'storms of life' come, it can seem like everything is crashing around us, we feel swamped and helpless. We can take our eyes of Jesus and focus on the waves. Things feel like they are too much for us to handle and we panic. God however, does not panic. God does not think 'oh no, a storm, whatever shall I do?' God is calm.
It occurs to me that I was not made to live a normal life where I make money to make ends meat, and just get by happily. A Christian is made in Christ Jesus to do good works. Now what those good works are will vary from person to person, but I am sure that staying inside, moping and playing too many video games is not the good works I have been called to do.
I have been thinking of all the things I am incapable of, rather than all the things God can do through me. This has been bringing me down and I have been feeling incapable of doing good. There is not a single achievement to my name that I can say I did without God. I should have faith that God is with me wherever I go, and that he has a place for me.
Have you ever been praying and then you have a thought, then another, and another, and you're all 'one of these could be God, but how do I know for sure?' Well, there's a few ways we can check. I would argue that the number one way God answers prayer (for me, and I suspect for most), is through scripture. If I'm praying God may remind me of a proverb, a teaching, or just a random seemingly unrelated verse. 'But how do I know that isn't just a verse I thought of, or one the enemy put there to distract me?'
"when you pray, say..." (Luke 11:2a). It seems common amongst all but one prayer in the bible (If I am mistaken please correct me) that prayer is spoken. Is this significant?
Money is the root of all evil', is a popular expression. It's an expression based upon a bible verse (as all good expressions are). 1 Timothy 6:10 reads: 'For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil'. A small exploration of this verse.
I don't know for certain what will happen in the future. There are some things however that I do know about the future. Firstly, that God will be with me (Hebrews 13:5), whether I am rich or poor, he will be with me. Secondly, God will still love me (Romans 8:39-39), his love never changes: he won't love me any more or any less, he loves me right now as much as he ever will.
London no longer feels like home. University also no longer feels like home, I'm ready to move on. So where is home? Philippians 3:20 says 'But our citizenship is in heaven'. We are always at home in the presence of our loving, heavenly Father.