I have not posted for a while because I have been feeling, foolishly, sorry for myself and inadequate. Filling out job applications (which are anywhere between 3-15 pages long) is very exhausting, especially when you don’t receive much back. I have been thinking of all the things I am incapable of, rather than all the things God can do through me. This has been bringing me down and I have been feeling incapable of doing good. There is not a single achievement to my name that I can say I did without God. I should have faith that God is with me wherever I go, and that he has a place for me. Some scriptures to help focus myself:
Deuteronomy 31:8 – ‘The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged’.
Philippians 1:6 – ‘he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus’.
Hebrews 12:3 – ‘Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart’.
Galatians 2:20 – ‘I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me’.
Ephesians 2:10 – ‘For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do’.
I am created in Christ Jesus to do good works, and I will do these good works. I will focus on Jesus that I do not grow tired of doing good, knowing that he is with me and before me. I live by faith in Jesus, who gave everything so I could serve him and so he could live in me. My efforts are not in vain, and one day this body shall be redeemed. With God anything is possible. God makes shepherds kings and murderers leaders. He can do great things with me also.
God bless you and keep you always,